Night Lights in Mumbai – Story of Night

It was a feeling of conscious dying. Its all an illusion and a wonderful dream of life. It was around night 11PM and I was sitting on my rooftop looking at the stars.There were a lot of starts and I focused my vision on one of the stars. I starred at the stars as if nothing exists and as time flew by which was not in my awareness, I felt that I was filled with starness of that star.Tears rolled over my eyes out of bliss.

Separation was hard and the day was awesome with tears.I then moved out to my room and sat looking at the mirror on how I looked. I felt like I lived a poor life since I thought giving is richness.To Understand richness is like understanding there is nothing you have got to give. A feeling of utter emptiness and I smiled in the mirror to understand that the mirror is empty as well.In a Flash everything looked like a reflection of her. An Understanding that Life is full of moments and the emotions cannot be freezed. The Fan above my head was rotating at a speed such that I could not see the wings.It appeared as if the wings does not exists. I kept staring at the fan for seconds. I woke up from the chair and moved to my bed to close my eyes.

Night Lights in Mumbai (With Sounds of Traffic)

I happened to travel to Mumbai for no reason to attend a marriage of friend’s friend. My Friend compelled me to travel with him since he did not get any company. We were about to reach the marriage hall and it was around evening 5:30PM. I did not know anyone in Mumbai nor I knew Hindi to understand a conversation and I completely relied on my friend during the travel. We reached the marriage hall around 6:00PM and it looked like a palace filled with colors and lights. There was lot of traffic as well near the hall and I just crossed ahead of my friend to reach the hall inside.

I started my walk inside the reception. I had no thoughts running in my mind and I was completely blank. It was in this blankness I found her. She was standing near the reception in blue saree along with other girls. One thing was sure to me that this is not Love and the emotions were so electrifying. I walked slowly towards her with a raise in heart beat. I felt friendliness for the first time in my Life as I went near her. She had a rose in her hand and greeted me with a smile. I felt completely blank as she looked at my eyes.

The girls around her asked me something in Hindi and I stood starting at them and answered something strange in chaos and they all started laughing. She did not laugh and stood smiling at me and it was so awesome for me to find her looking at me without any prejudices.I jovially asked and waved my hand if she needs the gift which was brought for the brides. Her friend sitting next to her asked what you will buy for this sister. I said to her, “So Clever” and added You are my sister and She is not and I smiled at her.

I asked her name for which she replied and I was just standing in front of her looking at her. My friend came and asked me to move in. I replied to her that I will just come back. I went with my friend inside and handed over him with the gift box and I said to him that I will come in few minutes.I quickly went outside to check the girl whom I met. When I went there, She was not there and I asked her friend where she is. She said she has gone out to brides home which is few kilometers away to bring the Bridegroom dresses for tomorrow. I asked her the area name and started moving in search of her.

I was completed filled with her and I walked for around one hour to find her in the streets here and there asking in Broken Hindi and I had no idea about the place or streets but I had a small hope to find her somehow.My friend called me few times and I switched off my mobile out of distractions. I finally lost all hopes and I tried returning to the marriage hall. In the street next to the marriage hall, I saw her walking along with her friends. She has changed her dress from saree to pink chudidar in which she looked gorgeous.I just felt so happy in seeing her and rushed towards her to speak. I just went forward and crossed the road and appeared like I was walking in the opposite direction of her. When I reached her, I showed a surprise stating Hi. She stopped while the other girls moved away in a slanting manner. As they waited in the side, I waved them to leave and handled over the bags to them which had some marriage materials.

As we stood there standing each other, a guy selling balloon walked across and She was so girly asking hey we can buy a balloon. I had a few tears in my eyes to have used my ego to cross the road and to appear casual in front of her. With this thinking I just stood for few seconds and noted that the balloon guy had walked far and I ran to get a orange balloon to give it to her. We reached the marriage hall and she asked if we can have pani poori which was given in front of the hall outside. We sat near a big tree in front of the hall and looked at the Nights lights of Mumbai and the passing traffic. Whenever few girls crossed the tree, I was conscious enough to look only at her for which she kept smiling at me.

It would have been a hour we just sat not talking much and the intimacy was heart felt as if the moments were freezed for hours and then as we heard a sound, we felt like crying but we couldn’t and we looked at each other. The balloon which she was holding burst with a sound and there was silence everywhere, a feeling of no movement of traffic, people and both of us. She got a call from her friend and she looked at me and said, Chalo lets go inside and as she walked in with her friends and I just wanted to go behind her but I couldn’t and my friend asked me if we can start back to stay in a friends home at night and to leave tomorrow. Hearing it I was not able to take any action, I just wanted to see her once again and searched her to say good bye.The night was so cold and the moon was bright but I had only a feeling that “Night is all about a Hangover of Emotions and Dreams”.

END

Love to be Loved : A Love Story

The Night was Dark and it was raining heavily. The Watch read 10:30PM. She got some calls and She was busy talking in the Phone.I looked at her face and it was so bright in the moonlight. We both were standing in the Bus Stop and there was no sign of Bus or any movement.

I looked at her ID Card and I came to know She was working in my Company but I have not seen her till date. I thought to myself that She may be new to the Company as I would have known any beautiful girl in and around my space. She turned towards me and looked at me and She had a laugh suddenly.

For her, I should have looked like Fun loving Software Engineer with a Spike in my head and a French Beard. I wanted to take this as my advantage and I approached her. She got a call again and was saying, “why do you want to struggle in this rain; I will manage and come in an Auto. You please dont worry”

She once again saw me and had a sweet smile in her face. I looked up and said, “Seems Its raining heavily” for which giggled and said, “Ya Ya”. I continued asking..So,where is your House and by the same time a Auto Passed alongside and She waived her hand. The Auto Stopped and She was about to move. For me, It was like I have asked a Question and she is about to move and was wondering if I got a Bulb.

Suddenly She stopped and asked where do you want to go and my fused bulb started to glow in the dark.She said to me that I am also going that way and if you want we can share the ride. I got in and It was like a Share Auto and She was sitting on the Opposite Side in the Cusion and I was sitting in the Wooden Board. I thought She would think me like a gentleman by not sitting next to the beautiful girl.

For me, It was more convienent to watch her face in the Lightening strike and her face was glittering in the Flash.I was waiting for the lightening to strike again to see her face again and again in the Flash. I could sense that She was feeling little tensed and was seen messaging curiosly.

I asked if She is okay and asked her name in the middle of it. She said her name but did not ask mine which I thought was normal and I did not feel much worried about it. Even if I was worried I did not want to show it in my face atleast. As time passes by,I was feeling worried as She was sitting silent and I am still waiting if She would ask my name.

I started again introducing myself and my name for which She showed some interest.I was little happy and asked her some questions for which She answered back. I felt some relief when she started talking and had some golden thought that my Journey was set. My Yet Another mind of the Men’s Species was in the exicted state thinking that since she has talked to you, your Life will now become Colourful starting from the Dark.

The Same Mind made me ask her, Which College did you study,the usual and the same Question. For which She said the name of a Woman’s Collage. I started asking about her College Life and She started saying How other girls cut the college and move out with their boyfriends and other such stories which was quite different to hear it from a girl.

Now, the Mind asked a Question which became the twist of the Story. The Question was did you ever love anyone like the other girls in your class? She became silent and It was raising my blood pressure and the auto ride was like a roller coaster for me.

She started by saying No… where I had a feeling like gulping a banana as if it was in the throat, She said completed the sentence saying,”No, I did not have any love near my College since I had a boyfriend near my house. He was there in the same street, the house before my house” She stopped.

It was already dark and I could not see anything when she completed the sentence. I had enough jerk as the auto rushed in the midst of the broken road filled with water. My mind wanted to know what happened after that and asked her,So, What happened after that?

She continued, One Day my family members came to know that I am in affair with this front door boy as one of our nieghbours who saw us informed about this to my parents…My mind was thinking that her family would have somehow emotionally blackmailed and asked her to forget the boy and concentrate on the studies. A lorry crossed with a horn as I was thinking and I could notice that I had infact lost the track on what she was saying and the last words said were like until my marriage.

What? It was like someone is blowing a conch(Sangu) near my ear and my own mind was laughing at me. It was a strange moment in my life as I was not able to laugh nor was not able to cry. Strangely, I also wanted to cry and laugh at the same time which I even could not do. In this confusion I gazed around I could see her lips moving but all I could hear was a OoHoo Sound.

Once the sound reduced I could hear that She was saying, “My Husband will start his own company in the next month and I no longer have to work again”. The Feelings were like I could not breathe nor could say a word. There were no thoughts completely but I was sure that I am alive. I did not move my eyes, legs or the body. This position lasted for some minutes until my mind started a thinking,”So, He is the one whom She was talking to and was messaging all the time?”

“Oh, My God..So, She had fooled me or She had used me to travel with her for her security? I cannot believe anyone, Oh My God…” My mind was blabbering in its own world and at the sametime another mind was insisting me, “Damn,She is such a sweet girl to help you and to let you inside the auto since She had some trust on you. So, Be greatful to her, man” I could feel that I am breathing and that I have come back to normal.

I thought my second mind was right, I should be greatful to her and She did not fool me; It was me who wanted to start a conversation with her. My Mind started to cool down with this thoughts and it definetely had to cool down anyhow. What else it can do in this situation?

Finally the Brake was applied and She thanked me and got down from the Auto and me who was thinking in some world seemed to have blabbered and asked her if she was in Facebook (To give an impression to maintain the friendship he had in the ride.) After the words have come out,I had some strange feelings if I had friendship in the ride which was quite disturbing me. But,She gave me the one and I did not peep out to look at her husband and the Auto started moving.

Then, After few months of Dry Life, I just thought to give a try on her Facebook since I was bored. So,I went inside her Profile.There I saw your Pic in her Friend List with a beautiful and Cute smile and I gave you the Friend Request. I did not really expect that you would accept me and I am thankful to God to have you as my Wife. “So”, My Wife started to ask a Question. I already knew what She was going to ask. Hence, before even she completed her sentence, I started, “Yes, I already knew that you are her Junior and that I also had some idea that you can spend time with me by bunking your classes.

I completed saying this story to my Wife and She said Idiot in her own sweet manner and came running to hit me saying, “You.. You….”

 

Its Purely Love – Romantic Love Story

Its Purely Love
– Romantic Love Story

He was all alone. He was swimming in the Lake.
The world is so beautiful and yet he is alone.
He enjoyed the life to the core.
The Trees, Fruits, Birds, Sunlight, Rain, Cloud.
Nature was at its Best.
They all surrounded him yet he was alone.
He never thought he was alone.
He just enjoyed each and every moment.
There was no Time for him to think
Nor There was no Time in his World.
He don’t know God and There was no need for him to Thank God

He was all alone.He was swimming in the Lake.
A beautiful girl of course came by the way.
He never saw anything like this in his Life
He saw Birds,deer,tiger,crocodile and snake.
But what is this? He was in fear and his heart beat raised.
He ran and ride himself behind a tree.
He peeped his eyes from the bark of the trees and looked her!
Wow! I am thinking and I came to know that I am Me.
So, Who is this new person in this beautiful world.
Aaah!! A Loud Noise is heard.
The Snake had bite his leg and She walked towards the noise.

Yes, She saw him for her first time.
She could not control her emotions seeing him suffer.
She wanted to help him and touched his legs to suck the poison.
He thought She is coming to hurt him and moved away.
She came forward to remove the poison and saved his Life.
He cried loud and louder. He never felt so much pain.
This is the First time He is feeling the Pain in his Heart!
She had a Red Fruit in her Hand and She gave him.
He eat it and the Poison was completely removed from his body.
She walked away from him after he became normal
He walked behind her and He cannot tolerate her separation.

He thought to spend this beautiful world with her.
To show her the sunrise and to she her smile
He wanted to sit with her and chat under the shady tree.
She said that I am an Illusion and asked him to leave.
He cannot understand anything and He was dying for her.
She walked away crying with tears and moved away from him.
That was the First time he saw someone crying.
He felt the Pain and He had an affection in his mind.
Everything in this beautiful world appeared dark to him.
He wanted someone with him now and being alone made him think.
He thought, thought and thought without enjoying the present.
Suddenly He shouted why are you doing this to me.
What did I do to you and who are you?
He is shouting to God requesting him to bring her back.

Many Years have passed.She came back to see him!
For some years he was sad and unhappy
Then He came to an understanding that there is nothing!
For him Nothing meant Simply Nothing!
He saw her for the Second Time and felt Nothing.
She came slowly towards him and whispered in his ears.
I Love you deeply!
And I was waiting for you all these years.
He opened his eyes and slowly smiled and said:
I Love You and I am no more attached to you.

🙂 End

Love Failure Video Song

 

A Friend advices to a Guy who has just lost his Love.
Language of the Song is in Tamil!

 

Mind is not our Choice?

 Mind is not in our hands or Our Mind is not our Choice.  How is that Mind is not our choice?

Scenario One: JoAnn and her Birthday Gift.

Day One:

JoAnn wanted to buy a gift for her friend’s birthday. She had 100 bucks and she found a wonderful watch and when she was about to purchase it, someone gently requests her that they wanted the watch and JoAnn felt sorry for them and let them buy it.

Day Two:

JoAnn went to a different shopping center and she was surprised to  find the same watch again but now she came to know that someone has already ordered it and now she approaches the concerned person to ask gently that she was in need of the watch but she were not successful in getting it.

Mind Analysis:I helped a person on Day One and in Day Two when the same thing happened to me, no one helped me.         Attitude:She now develop a Attitude that not to help others.

Day Three:

A Friend of JoAnn asked her to lend 100 bucks for a medical emergency. She just replied,” I don’t have any money now”. JoAnn went to a shop to buy some watch which was available for 100 bucks as it was getting delayed. She also felt sad about the lie she said to her friend

Day Four:

When the watch had been gifted to her friend , her friend replied that, I have so many watches and it could have been better if I had got something else. JoAnn felt sorry that she had taken three days to present a gift and that she was not appreciated. She also had a thought that,”I could have helped a friend who had an emergency.”

Mind Analysis: I did not help the Person in Day Three and gave a present to a person on Day Four and I was not appreciated. Attitude:Its better to help a person who is in need rather than who doesn’t ask for help.                                                    

All the Attitudes a person have turns into his character.How is that Attitude turns into a Character?

Scenario Two:  Dong  Lee Mind and his Attitude

Dong Lee Attitude: Smoking is injurious to health and I came to know that many smokers died of cancer.

Dong Lee goes to a party where everyone in the party smokes, some compels him to smoke but he was so strong that he did not accept their request. Everyone in  the party came to an conclusion about Dong that Dong never smokes(Dong Character).

When someone someday finds Dong Lee smoking, they would question him, I thought you would never smoke?

Dong would reply that I started this habit recently since I thought smoking one or two cigars per week is not so injurious( Changed Attitude).

A Attitude of a person varies from Time to Time and the character of a person is what seen by others.

Example:

  • I never thought you would do like this.
  • I did not expect this from you.
  • I believed you but you cheated me.

We assume a Character on a person and would  view the person as the character and if the attitude change, the character change.

If Attitude of a Person can Change, why is that I am not able to change my habit?

We just need to understand that “Our Mind is not our Choice” or in other words, “Our Mind is not in Our Hands.

Why is that Mind is not our Choice and How to make it as Our Choice?

The Brain is an Organ which receives constant inputs from sense organs in the body and stores the information and the Output of the information can be called as a thought.

A series of thoughts can be called as Mind.

Example: I forgot where I kept my pen?

Upon Analyzing the information stored in the brain like where you went, whom you met and if you had given to someone, these thoughts can be put together as Mind.

The Information you receive will change day by day and the hence chances are that your mind changes and so does your attitude and character changes.

Now, The Real problem is if we want to really change something it seems to be very difficult.

Example:

  • I want to reduce my weight. Even though I have read a lot of information about being slim; I am unable to become slim.
  • I want to quit my bad habits such as smoking, but I am unable to do so; may be I think I got addicted.

So How to change an Habit or to become a better person?

We need to know about the Three Kinds of Mind to understand how we can change or how we can use our mind to become a better person.

  1. Conscious Mind – Thoughts
  2.  Sub-Conscious Mind – Habits (Character- Attitude)
  3. Unconscious Mind – Sleep

In Simple Words, Sub-Conscious Mind is the one which controls Habits. It will make you to remember even if you forget it.

Example:

Brushing the Teeth is an Habitual Action we do daily which is controlled by Sub-Conscious.

But in Day One, You would not have remembered that we need to brush our teeth and our mother would have reminded us to do so.

Thus it takes nearly a month for a subconscious mind to remind us an activity to do daily.

In Short we Just need to follow the action for 5 days. The Next Two days(Saturday and Sunday) again mother has to wake us up and then ask to brush our teeth.

To Change an Habit and to change ourselves, We just need to do the activity for 5 days.

Astrology is Perception

I am not a believer of astrology. But, Astrology has played a fatal role in my life and had brought sorrows to me.

It all started when I found some astrology books in my grandfather’s house. It was very fun for me to ask for other people’s date of birth and to check their character and yes most people agreed with some points what I said. The important aspect I do is I will read their characters personally and if I found a match in the book, I will tell only those points and not other points which I don’t understand.

So, by this I checked the traits of my close friends and used to tell them and they would throw me surprises and tell me how you are telling me exactly. But, I never knew it could create so much sorrow in my life.

I checked for one of my friend and said about the traits and yes there was surprise and agreed to be true. But the future part written on the person was not good in my perception of them. I firmly believed that a disaster is going to happen and I was going mad such that I should anyhow save from disaster. I had taken that as a motto of my life.

I was not a believer of god but I was going into external locus of control and some events occurred which was out of my control and thought that some external power is there. However, I never prayed for me but I was praying for that person and was crying day and night that I need to somehow stop the disaster. This was also because of the factor that the person said only god can save me and some events were occurring which gave me signals that a disaster is going to happen.

I started thinking day and night about the person and I failed to mind my own business. I did not show interest in anything and I was always found to be dull. I stopped enjoying and I thought I should not enjoy.

The disaster did not happen and my perception was wrong. I also believe that in some way, I was helpful in stopping the disaster again which I don’t know if it right or wrong. This is again my perception and I know that I somehow need to avoid it.

 

 

The Adamant Love

  • Every Time or may be Every Second, I am thinking about her.
  • Whenever I do something, it happens that my mind thinks whether she would like what I am doing now even if it no way relevant to her.
  • There is no patience, whenever I have an information I am eager to share with her.
  • Whenever I call her and she doesn’t pickup and I keep worrying all time and my mind thinks why she has not answered the call.
  • Some Days thoughts are filled that I am disturbing her and again it is out of control to call her to ask sorry if I have disturbed her.
  • There is always a Question in mind on whether she likes me or a thought that I am unable to understand her.

If any of the above scenarios  is true to a person then the person may assume that it is Love but more apt word should be Adamant.

The Adamant Nature is a devil which kills the self and others.

Examples of Adamant Nature:

  • As a child, we ask our parents to buy something and if we did not get it, we turn adamant and cry till we get what we wanted.
  • In other case, we cry to get something from our parents and continue to cry and once they give us, we might have said,”I don’t need it. Get Away from me”.

Understanding Adamant Nature:

  • By Being Adamant, we don’t listen to others and their intention of what they are trying to tell.
  • We also don’t express ourselves the real situation and just try to repeat the same answer again and again.

How to overcome Adamant Nature:

  • Being Adamant is an Attitude.
  • Easy way to change the Adamant nature is to have a “Take it easy Policy”.
  • Focus on others happiness and try to accept and respect the suggestions from them.
  • The words “Focus on others happiness” doesn’t mean you have to worry about them thinking if they are happy or not.