A real story of how a girl guided me

A real story of how a girl guided me

For Years a girl did not talk to me and the first time she rejected me, I went through a phase of understanding the patterns within me and came out of the mind thing. I was roaming empty minded with no thoughts. With efforts and without efforts she did not talk to me. Initially I was not thinking or making a fuss about it as I understood her own freedom. But things got worried since she accepted me to chat with her but not to talk with her or meet her in live. I could not understand this because I did nothing for years and yet she is still angry on me or not ready to accept me to say hi or talk. In this second phase or state, even though there are no thought patterns, I was able to witness the core functioning in me..I mean the core characteristics or behaviors in me such as anger rising, no desirableness,lack of interest in worldly affairs. Having understood the emptiness and reality but still these mind fluctuations were popping up from somewhere. I had some thoughts that why certain aspects like lack of interest is popping up when a attitude for doing something could have popped up. This time she opened me into the world of mathematical equations of Individuality. Of course, we are living in the common world of certain personalities patterns from schools, colleges and office were human products come in a certain line of societal conditioning behavior where the access to your core would have been in unconscious not letting you discover your own self.

By self, I mean the things like why are you behaving the way you behave. I remember the line she said,I am not comfortable with your odd behavior where in reality I didn’t feel anything like odd behavior but what made her feel that my behavior is odd.I felt the words behavior.. behavior..inside me to understand my behaviors or what is causing my behaviors. For instance, Some behavior patterns such as Why is that I am not excited about money when others are running behind money or Things like why is that I am reserved and why not talking. why is that I am detached in life where you may be inclined to government job and why not listen carnatic music rather than pop. Why are you bored in sports and interested in boring marketing job when I hate roaming outside. Things like why I am behaving the way I am behaving and not the other way around. I figured out certain attitudes in me which are not helping me and people around me because of my behavior. Of course, the outside people try us to mold to their interests and why is that you resist them or accept to go with few people like your spouse or may be adjust with spouse or business partners.

With these ideas, I was trying few things to alter my personality traits and found that the real burning desire of the model personality were not turning out. A interview of actor may excite few people rather than a business man speech like Steve jobs. Why is that I am not able to be inspired to take action from academic guys advice. I don’t know, One day I talked with my manager very openly that I am not excited about my life and my ideas towards life. He was cool enough and said he have not met any person like me. More than him, that talk made me identify few core behaviors about me based on the free talk and also at the right time as the questions came out from my manager about me. A few days,later my friend called and talked about the equations of numbers in relation to persons behavior and why two persons are not able to relate well. It made a few sense to me and increased my curiosity to do a research on astronomy or astrology relations and numbers. I can say I am satisfied with the answers I found and it matched to a greater degree which I was looking for.

The Permutations and Combinations of a Personality or I can say in identifying ones own individuality is too much that there cannot be any person similar like you ever. In that way, its a very complex phenomenon which cannot be exactly understood by an individual level of mind.
Understanding my own complexity nature I have to understand the universe play of numbers and degree. The Core for predictive science or base is “astronomy” – The Study of planetary positions and with that base, the arts of my understanding, the decoding was used to study the influence of planets within the person mind(say in this case, me). However, the idea I say is that astronomy is science whereas astrology is the derived art from the science exploration data. How a person decodes the data is the real art because there are so much complexities in it and not a direct formula. Earlier, in few websites I would have seen my birthday personality or for my zodiac sign and here and there, there would be few matches like 30 or 50% match or we may feel okay reading them. These zodiac sign astrology or numerology are incorrect in every sense to project personality for 12 signs for the billions of people. In reality, the astrology is a research and intuitive art. One needs to have a solid understanding of mind and beyond mind to first understand the nature of existence. You need to break your belief systems to free beyond mind to understand certain new belief systems. For example, How can one believe that when a child is born, its planets influence and until you go beyond this, you cannot figure out what I mean here or a question of your belief would continue.Next comes the analysis of the planetary positions and what it decodes. How about decoding say 98% information about your behaviors, attitudes and patterns you would behave. I mean the core of you?

I felt like I am seeing only numbers in the universe everywhere which are being played the way they play. Of course, the events are new and there is a free will one can think of and participate in the game of Life. To me now, my nature is isolation oriented because seeing the numbers playing its role does not make any sense for me to participate as I am witnessing with a free will attitude thinking that I don’t like participating in this game of predictive random patterns and I still lose the game, because the finding is that my nature of number is playing in isolation. I hope you got it.

A Few days of these analysis is like encoding my entire life or like the encoding the universe patterns to see some wonders.Never mind if you cannot understand or this post does not make any sense. This is just about ‘Self’. Even the ‘No-Self’ or the so called Enlightenment is not a goal to achieve. In fact,the so called Enlightenment is a momentary issue of realization but understanding the dynamics of objects and subjects in the universe is truly a delight to understand. The reality to understand is that Just living in Zen is awesome!

If someone is curios to know more about this or to know about your nature, I can guide some help since I feel it can give me satisfaction and also my way of helping others to explore their inner nature. I am thankful to my friend as well as existence.

Few Scribblings, Never Mind 🙂

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Dissolve your Communication Skills

I have 1000 of reasons why communication skills is not needed for Humans. Yes its needed but its given too much of a hype out in the world. Truly it sucks. The Number :1 reason is Communication does not have an intimacy. You have an agenda or a task in mind and you approach or probably ping other like a robot. The Communication goes like this,a formal Hi and then straight to the Point which is mostly Do and Don’t or a command with a “can” or “will”. It mostly ends with a smiling smiley.

The Problem of communication is that One group communicates with client or customers as a receiving channel and then passes down the information to the other end. The Idea is that the Middle guy should converse with both the ends or collaborate both the ends to bring about the actual purpose of the idea both really wants. Otherwise, it would appear that one has to do what has been communicated as a duty.

Communication simply is a art of speaking the ideas one thinks in the mind.It ends there.The ability to make a creative conversation out of the ideas we have is communication.Now Communication has become more of an sending down the command and message. One really needs to understand if he becomes a Man by communicating or he became a Robo by communicating.That’s the core point. Even Parrots can be better communicators than Robots since there is a cute factor in the communication of Parrots.

Always having an agenda in Mind and in the name of getting things done is what makes Jack a dull boy. when there is no agenda, conversation happens and out of the conversation there is a great contentment in the moment spent for both.He directly feels the connection with the other person without any wires of communication link. The wi-fi hotspot is active for both and connection happens in a click. It takes real time to build a great world. Destruction can be fast. Communication is more of a command which is destructive by nature. It appears that we are building but we are actually cutting down the trees, we are cutting down the roots.

The Future is really going to get mad with the Internet of Things where even objects communicate with each other. Your Home, Fridge, TV, Mobile, Car, Credit Cards, Devices all will communicate with each other and do things on it own. Imagine all the devices shouting at you in a moment. So funny to see you with an electric shock hairstyle with You sitting there in the middle of all things. People are now angry that they want to break their computers and in the future they simply will be angry on plenty of things. The Capitalistic Model of One Mans Business is not going to enhance the society. He is trying to set up everything automatic so he can relax but he is not able to relax. You are trying to learn skills on Internet of things for the One mans Idea of relaxing in his Future. Both are going to meet and fail because the moment it meets, the technology is outdated and the one man is worried that whatever he has setup is outdated and there is a next one man turning things for his future relaxing.

Relaxing the Business Way

Relaxing the Business Way

Breathing Out is Relaxing. Quit Smoking!

The way of Materials does not function as Life and Death. They are not two separate terms. Death is a very Relaxing Process within Life. “Breathing In” is Life and “Breathing Out” is Death. This is in terms of the Core Self in the Mind. In Simple Words, “Breathing In” creates the Self Buffer and “Breathing Out” dissolves the Self Buffer.

Mind is a very broad term and to explain Mind we need to look deep into the Mind. Mind consists of Manas, Intellect and Self. In other words, Manas,Intellect and Self is collectively called as Mind. Self is all the I statements you use. For Example: I am Robin and I am coming from Delhi.Intellect is the Skill Part which is the training part of the Mind. You use Intellect to learn and understand. For Example: Swimming, Cycling or Driving. Before one can swim, the Self is not aware of the certainity. Its completely unknown. Slowly the Intellect analysis and learns and informs the Self. Then the Self feels the ease out the unknown with the help of the Intellect. Manas is the empty space where the Brain sends the sense inputs, thoughts stored in memory.Self and Intellect analyse and process these information and takes decision. Self Buffer attaches itself to the thoughts which are colored and a emotional decision is made. Intellect may go mad or makes rational suggestions to Self based on the input through comparison.For Example: You have got so much of skills and still you dont shine and the other guy who does not know anything has plenty of money. The Intellect automatically suggests to Self and the Self buffer goes down where motivation is needed to push the self buffer high again. This is the cycle of Self. This is the cycle of so called your life.

Death is very relaxing because once the self dissolves manas is free with pure consciousness alone with no thoughts as thoughts are the basic root cause of distractions and confusions. The Thoughtless Mind is the Richest Mind. Not the Mind of Bill Gates or Steve Jobs. Richness is not measured in terms of Money. Hence the Self running after money is sheer madness. As a Utility, Money can be exchanged for sharing towards the Humanity. Its very relaxing if one has no thought of money and can utilize and make use of money towards building a better world. Better World comes here because You are beyond Self and You become the Consciousness once the Self dissolves into relaxation.

Relaxation is a sense of coolness to handle and function. Relaxation is an activity and not merely sitting idle as one believes. Conversing in a relaxed way makes everyone feel better as there is no tension. You have made a next person happy and he will turn creative out the happiness you have shared. The Project and the tasks we handle should be relaxing and one actually should feel sad once the Project is over. Many go for treats and party once the project is completed and they would be waiting for the Project to get completed, so that they can go and relax. As a Painter he draws day and night and once the beautiful painting is completed, he feels boredom with contentment because the relaxation over painting has come to an end. Now He thinks what are the other ways to relax.

The way people work to create pressure out of themselves and others is ridiculous. Then they go out for smoking to relax themselves.There is a certain knack which we need to understand the situation which we are living co depending with each other. We live for people and policies,deliverable and compliance should support for the benefit of people among us as well as around us. Every one are customers to one another. Diving into creativity and making things happy around us will result in customer satisfaction.

A Night before Valentines Day – Love Story

It was a day of Pongal festival and I was wearing white dhoti and trying to pose for camera outside my home while my sister was taking few snaps. I felt something strange on seeing the crows flying to the next door balcony. There were a lot of crows and was imagining if the next door grandmother has prepared vada. I went to my upstairs to have a look at the reality. As I walking upstairs and the crows were flying away giving her the introduction scene, I saw her in pink chudidar with a sandal bindi and jasmine flower. She looked very trendy and modern in appearance as well. My eyes started glowing in wow factor as she turned towards me. She had a laughing smile in her face which gave me a woo factor on seeing her. I just took my hand to wave while she moved away into her home. I stood there in the hand waving position for a few seconds only to put down and turned aside to check if nobody has noticed.

The Next day as me and my area guys were standing near the tea shop having vada in hands. I felt a sensation of bunch of crows coming and attacking me to get the vada from my hands. I laughed at myself standing there while the guys were asking “what happened machi”. They were talking to themselves saying something has happened to him since I was not involved much into their pass time cinema conversations. As I stood there, she and her family crossed across to enter the temple nearby.I informed my friends that I have some work machi to move behind them.Inside the temple, I found that she was sitting in front of a big banyan tree and her family members were behind inside the temple. She noticed me walking in front of her and she waved her hands. I smiled and walked near her thinking in dilemma if she was waving hands to me or someone behind me. I turned aside to check if there was no one and waved my hands at her. So Yesterday you saw me waving my hands I asked and introduced myself.

Me: Hey,I am a guy from your next door and I saw you yesterday.Hope You have come to your grandmother home.
She : Yeah,Thats my grandmother Home and I know about you.

I was shocked and was thinking”Know about you?” May be what she know about me. Wondering looking at the Banyan tree as the leaves were falling down.

She :My grandfather was saying about you that You used to break the glass windows by playing cricket with your friends. So those are your friends right standing in the tea stall and passing running comments on the girls. He also said not to talk with you.. ha ha

I looked at her as no words were coming from my mouth. However inside there was a little cunning laugh running around that she is talking..she is talking.

Me: So your grand father said everything about me? He used to say that he have a grand daughter but never said that he would have such a beautiful grand daughter.I need to fight with him for hiding the truth with me. And also for saying not to talk with me (Showing a very sad expression in face as she was smiling at my reactions).She just smiled and was saying like hey..I added immediately, “So where are you from.”

She : My Dad works in Belgaum,Karnataka Border and we just came here to visit my grandfather for Sankranthi holidays.

Me : Have you been here in childhood and if you remember if we meet in childhood.

She turned back to check if her family were coming and she was little tensed. She added that this is the first time she is coming here and that she has seen me in the Photographs which her grandfather shared in the family events in recent years where I happened to attend.

Me : Thats nice.

She once again turned back and checked and said my family may come any time. we can talk later.

Me : Oh..ok.

I stood there few minutes and she asked what..I smiled and said I will call you in your grandfather mobile.. ha ha

After two days, I messaged her as she was moving back to her home town.
Hi (her name), I feel a different dimension in you now and You are completely different than initially what I thought about you.

She replied : What can I do..My family members were there.Should I need to continue talking with you or what?

I was little shocked to see her response and I replied
Hey, No..I was like telling initially you looked kind of a reserved girl but now I feel a different dimension of you that you are open and have a good understanding of life.

She replied Thanks and it was really nice meeting you and that she is leaving hometown. I asked if I can come for send off..She said “Onnum Veenam..Veeta Padam Parunga..Appa than friends ooda pesa mudium” (No Need..You stay in Home to watch movie to chat with your friends)

Her reply made me feel good not to watch movies and just dive into emotions simply.

I continued talking and chatting with her in Phone as days passed by and I liked her very much. She was more friendly and caring but I didn’t know if she really liked me. I felt that I need to meet her somehow or if I can visit her hometown. I thought that valentine days may be the best idea as it is nearing by and texted her

Me : What plans for this valentines day
She : I am staying in Home and would be bugging my dad and playing with him.
Me : Oh that’s nice.
She : What about your plans
Me : I usually hide on valentines day
She : As if the girls are searching for you..ha ha
Me : No..I am afraid of girls..That’s why..ha ha
She : I have an idea for you
Me : Oh, whats that idea (Expecting if she likes to say something about her)
She : You go for dating with a special person
Me: oh(removing…) special person?(removing..)
She continued typing
She : Gift her something she likes
Me (Mind voice) Who is the special person..I dont have any..:(
She : Say you really love her in a sweet and romantic way
Me : But who is the special person yar!!!
She : Your mom
Me : Oh, Sweet I can be..But romantic difficult.
She : And share with me how she really felt and How happy She was.

This valentines Day, its really nice for me to take my mom out as per her friendly suggestion and so grateful to meet a person like her made me feel happy about myself. Moreover she had lost her mom when she was young and it gave me a feeling of how valuable and precious are relationships in the our lives.

Night Lights in Mumbai – Story of Night

It was a feeling of conscious dying. Its all an illusion and a wonderful dream of life. It was around night 11PM and I was sitting on my rooftop looking at the stars.There were a lot of starts and I focused my vision on one of the stars. I starred at the stars as if nothing exists and as time flew by which was not in my awareness, I felt that I was filled with starness of that star.Tears rolled over my eyes out of bliss.

Separation was hard and the day was awesome with tears.I then moved out to my room and sat looking at the mirror on how I looked. I felt like I lived a poor life since I thought giving is richness.To Understand richness is like understanding there is nothing you have got to give. A feeling of utter emptiness and I smiled in the mirror to understand that the mirror is empty as well.In a Flash everything looked like a reflection of her. An Understanding that Life is full of moments and the emotions cannot be freezed. The Fan above my head was rotating at a speed such that I could not see the wings.It appeared as if the wings does not exists. I kept staring at the fan for seconds. I woke up from the chair and moved to my bed to close my eyes.

Night Lights in Mumbai (With Sounds of Traffic)

I happened to travel to Mumbai for no reason to attend a marriage of friend’s friend. My Friend compelled me to travel with him since he did not get any company. We were about to reach the marriage hall and it was around evening 5:30PM. I did not know anyone in Mumbai nor I knew Hindi to understand a conversation and I completely relied on my friend during the travel. We reached the marriage hall around 6:00PM and it looked like a palace filled with colors and lights. There was lot of traffic as well near the hall and I just crossed ahead of my friend to reach the hall inside.

I started my walk inside the reception. I had no thoughts running in my mind and I was completely blank. It was in this blankness I found her. She was standing near the reception in blue saree along with other girls. One thing was sure to me that this is not Love and the emotions were so electrifying. I walked slowly towards her with a raise in heart beat. I felt friendliness for the first time in my Life as I went near her. She had a rose in her hand and greeted me with a smile. I felt completely blank as she looked at my eyes.

The girls around her asked me something in Hindi and I stood starting at them and answered something strange in chaos and they all started laughing. She did not laugh and stood smiling at me and it was so awesome for me to find her looking at me without any prejudices.I jovially asked and waved my hand if she needs the gift which was brought for the brides. Her friend sitting next to her asked what you will buy for this sister. I said to her, “So Clever” and added You are my sister and She is not and I smiled at her.

I asked her name for which she replied and I was just standing in front of her looking at her. My friend came and asked me to move in. I replied to her that I will just come back. I went with my friend inside and handed over him with the gift box and I said to him that I will come in few minutes.I quickly went outside to check the girl whom I met. When I went there, She was not there and I asked her friend where she is. She said she has gone out to brides home which is few kilometers away to bring the Bridegroom dresses for tomorrow. I asked her the area name and started moving in search of her.

I was completed filled with her and I walked for around one hour to find her in the streets here and there asking in Broken Hindi and I had no idea about the place or streets but I had a small hope to find her somehow.My friend called me few times and I switched off my mobile out of distractions. I finally lost all hopes and I tried returning to the marriage hall. In the street next to the marriage hall, I saw her walking along with her friends. She has changed her dress from saree to pink chudidar in which she looked gorgeous.I just felt so happy in seeing her and rushed towards her to speak. I just went forward and crossed the road and appeared like I was walking in the opposite direction of her. When I reached her, I showed a surprise stating Hi. She stopped while the other girls moved away in a slanting manner. As they waited in the side, I waved them to leave and handled over the bags to them which had some marriage materials.

As we stood there standing each other, a guy selling balloon walked across and She was so girly asking hey we can buy a balloon. I had a few tears in my eyes to have used my ego to cross the road and to appear casual in front of her. With this thinking I just stood for few seconds and noted that the balloon guy had walked far and I ran to get a orange balloon to give it to her. We reached the marriage hall and she asked if we can have pani poori which was given in front of the hall outside. We sat near a big tree in front of the hall and looked at the Nights lights of Mumbai and the passing traffic. Whenever few girls crossed the tree, I was conscious enough to look only at her for which she kept smiling at me.

It would have been a hour we just sat not talking much and the intimacy was heart felt as if the moments were freezed for hours and then as we heard a sound, we felt like crying but we couldn’t and we looked at each other. The balloon which she was holding burst with a sound and there was silence everywhere, a feeling of no movement of traffic, people and both of us. She got a call from her friend and she looked at me and said, Chalo lets go inside and as she walked in with her friends and I just wanted to go behind her but I couldn’t and my friend asked me if we can start back to stay in a friends home at night and to leave tomorrow. Hearing it I was not able to take any action, I just wanted to see her once again and searched her to say good bye.The night was so cold and the moon was bright but I had only a feeling that “Night is all about a Hangover of Emotions and Dreams”.

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Ancient Indian Science of Prana

What is Prana?

We have heard about Yoga and Pranayama. Prana is a Sanskrit word and the translation in English is still not apt or possible in a single word or a bunch of statements. Prana is mostly translated in English as ‘Life Force’ and many also refer Oxygen as Prana.

I am not a Sanskrit scholar to give translation. However, by reading different texts, I tried to grasp what the ancients mean by Prana. Prana means Energy and my Explanation for the same is as below:

Light is a source of Energy as we say. But Light contains Photon which are particle in nature. Science also says that Photon contains quantum of Energy. By this, Photon carries Energy is the understanding.

In a similar sense, Oxygen is a matter(gas) but it in-turn will carry Energy(assume). The Matter is of Four State as identified(solid,liquid,gas,plasma) and these are all the manifestations of Energy and in-turn will carry Energy as well. A Photon is a manifestation of Energy and it in turn will carry Energy.

We intake air,Water and Food. We also have Vision, Sound, Taste and Smell has Inputs. The Energy from Air, Water and Food will be referred to as Prana.  In other sense, If we breathe Pure air, we intake more Prana and if the air is impure and polluted, the prana will be less. Same with  contaminated and polluted water and food. In that sense, Vegetarian Food will have more Prana than non-vegetarian food.

Air(Oxygen),Water and Food are important for our survival. Lets see How it works,

We drink Water(Prana) and it forms the blood and We eat food(Prana) which gets mixed in the blood and We breathe Oxygen(Prana) which burns the Food and supplies Energy as well as revitalizes the Body. There is a Channel for the Prana Flow in the Body. These Channels are called as Nadis.

What are Nadis?
Nadis are the nostrils, esophagus and Blood vessels. These are the channels in which the prana(Energy) flows.
There are two nostrils called as Ida and Pingala and the connecting point of the two nadis is called sushumna. If there are any blocks in the nostrils, the flow of Energy may get hindered and hence techniques like Pranayamana are of help.
Just like sushumna is a connecting Point for two nostrils, there are in total 72,000 connecting points in the blood vessels as well which are called as Chakras.

What are Chakras?
Chakras are the junction points for the Energy flow. If we connect two pipes for the flow of water and in case there is a block or hold in the junction, the flow or speed of water might get reduced. In a similar way, if there is any blockage in the blood vessel connecting points, the flow of prana could get affected. Pranayamana technique will be effective in the nostril and esophagus and it cannot be as effective in the blood vessels. Precaution is needed to maintain the blood(which carries prana) and this can be done by taking hygienic food which doesn’t contain any cholesterol and other junk. A fresh green vegetable has more prana than the dead meat. A fruit has more prana than the cooked food. A Fruit Juice has more prana than tea or coffee.

Seven Chakras and its Significance:
Of the 72,000 connecting points in the nadis(blood vessels) the Seven are the main Chakras. This number as such 72,000 may be associated with the heart beat(72 times) and the pulse rate(about 72 times). These are the termed as Main chakras as they are in line with the nervous system of the spinal cord. Hence whatever you think(mind), you will likely to spend the energy on that thought. For example, if you think about eating ice cream, you will use your energy thinking about icecream and focus on them to start an action with or without conscious. You may satisfy the thought by buying an ice cream and even if you don’t buy it now, you would have this thought pending which can affect your other routine works and in spending enough energy on them or concentrating.

The Seven Chakras will correspond to the endocrine glands in the human body and if there is any thought in the mind, the brain will command the endocrine glands to produce hormones. If the Mind is in fear, the brain would command the adrenal glands to secrete androgen and you would likely to spend your energy on fear and survival. This is True because when there is someone coming to kill you with a knife and we are hiding under a bed, we feel a sudden rise in Energy level in the body and there will be heavy breathe to supply more prana for the exhausting energy.

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